Sunday, November 28, 2010
now i know.
ur the one tat i hate the most.
u brought lots of things into my life
which i once loved but now detest.
i hate
how the way ur able to make me laugh
u for bringing joy
making me vunerable
making me reveal who i was
helping me to be less lonely
for helping me for everything
making me help u
But wat i hate the most is tat i got to noe u.
N somehow u became part of my life
as a goddamn fucking bestfriend.
i really really hate u.
i wanna hink differently but it's hard to change wat has happen
n to tak back wat wasn't suppose to be.
u were the one who made it all become like tis.
I HATE YOU.
ur the one tat i hate the most.
u brought lots of things into my life
which i once loved but now detest.
i hate
how the way ur able to make me laugh
u for bringing joy
making me vunerable
making me reveal who i was
helping me to be less lonely
for helping me for everything
making me help u
But wat i hate the most is tat i got to noe u.
N somehow u became part of my life
as a goddamn fucking bestfriend.
i really really hate u.
i wanna hink differently but it's hard to change wat has happen
n to tak back wat wasn't suppose to be.
u were the one who made it all become like tis.
I HATE YOU.
what we could have been, 10:32 PM.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I dream I was missing
U were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming,
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving?
When I’m done here?
So if you’re asking me, I want u to know…
When my time comes
Forgot the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed
Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in you’re memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest
Don’t be afraid
I’ve taking my beating
I’ve shared what I’ve made
I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have u
So if you’re asking me, I want u to know…
When my time comes
Forgot the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed
Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in you’re memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
U’ve learn to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come n save me from myself
I can’t be who u are
When my time comes
Forgot the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed
Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in you’re memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
U’ve learn to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come n save me from myself
I can’t be who u are
I can’t be who u are
U were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming,
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving?
When I’m done here?
So if you’re asking me, I want u to know…
When my time comes
Forgot the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed
Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in you’re memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest
Don’t be afraid
I’ve taking my beating
I’ve shared what I’ve made
I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have u
So if you’re asking me, I want u to know…
When my time comes
Forgot the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed
Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in you’re memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
U’ve learn to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come n save me from myself
I can’t be who u are
When my time comes
Forgot the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reason to be missed
Don’t resent me
When you’re feeling empty
Keep me in you’re memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
U’ve learn to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come n save me from myself
I can’t be who u are
I can’t be who u are
what we could have been, 2:54 PM.
BOREDOM.
Gah:(
i'm kinda sick of the hols 0.o
amazing rite?
but nt until i wanna go to sch. DUH.
i hate places called schools._.
pls?!
who doesn't?
this post is going no where.
NO WHERE.
SOME WHERE.
ANY WHERE.
:D
the com is boring now D:
BLEH.
i wanna go out:(
but there is any where i wanna go:(
so tat's pretty stupid-.-
argh.
FUCK IT.
Gah:(
i'm kinda sick of the hols 0.o
amazing rite?
but nt until i wanna go to sch. DUH.
i hate places called schools._.
pls?!
who doesn't?
this post is going no where.
NO WHERE.
SOME WHERE.
ANY WHERE.
:D
the com is boring now D:
BLEH.
i wanna go out:(
but there is any where i wanna go:(
so tat's pretty stupid-.-
argh.
FUCK IT.
what we could have been, 11:50 AM.
Monday, November 22, 2010
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: milo
2. Last phone call: yee ling
3. Last text message: vannesa
4. Last song you listened to: stuttering(fefe doubson)
5. Last time you cried:last year? or isit this year?
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope.
7. Been cheated on: nope.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope.
9. Lost something special: ya:( like 1000s of times._.
10. Been depressed: ya like duh-.-who hasn't?
11. Been drunk and threw up: water?
.LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. black
13. white
14. purple
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: yup:D
16. Fallen out of love: no.
17. Laughed until you cried: ya!!:D
18. Met someone who changed you: ...have i?
19. Found out who your true friends were: ...can don't answer?
20. Found out someone was talking about you: ya...
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: like no._.duh
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most:D
23. How many kids do you want to have: none.
24. Do you have any pets: no:P
25. Do you want to change your name: hell ya!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: hmm...celebrate!!:D
27. What time did you wake up today: 9.16 0.o
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: trying to sleep-.-
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: ummm...miracles:D
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: a lot of things
32. What are u listening to now: just a dream(nelly)
33. Have u ever met a person named Tom: no...
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing n everything
35. Most visited website: facebook,youtube,blogger
36. Whats your real name: tammy
37. Nicknames: hammy,hei mee._.
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac : ox
40. Male or Female?: female:D
41. Elemanatery: CHIJ OLGC
42. Middle School?: CHIJ SJC
43. High school/college?: not yet
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: short
46. Height: 157?
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: no
48: What do you like about yourself?: eyes?
49. Piercings: ya...closed:(
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: righty
.FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: nvr had
53. First piercing: quite long ago:P
54. First best friend: ...dunno
55. First sport you joined: wushu?
56. First vacation: Thailand
58. First pair of trainers: dunno...can't rmb.
(:RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: nothing
61. Going to: listen to more songs!:D
62. Listening to: homecoming(hey monday)
63. Waiting on: ?
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: no
65. Get Married: dunno...
66. Career?: of course.
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger n older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms
73. Sensitive or loud: sensetive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationships
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble makers:D
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: a bit:P
78. Lost glasses/contacts: ya...
79. Sex on first date: no.
80. Broken someone's heart: no.
82. Been arrested: in my dreams
83. Turned someone down: no
84. Cried when someone died: ...
85. Fallen for a friend?: duh...no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: ya
87. Miracles: yes!
88. Love at first sight: no.
89. Heaven: maybe...
90. Santa Claus: once._.
91. Kiss on the first date: ...no
92. Angels: yes:D
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no.
95. Did you sing today?: ya
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : pre school,no worries:D
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: graduation night
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes...
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: :D
1. Last beverage: milo
2. Last phone call: yee ling
3. Last text message: vannesa
4. Last song you listened to: stuttering(fefe doubson)
5. Last time you cried:last year? or isit this year?
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope.
7. Been cheated on: nope.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope.
9. Lost something special: ya:( like 1000s of times._.
10. Been depressed: ya like duh-.-who hasn't?
11. Been drunk and threw up: water?
.LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. black
13. white
14. purple
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: yup:D
16. Fallen out of love: no.
17. Laughed until you cried: ya!!:D
18. Met someone who changed you: ...have i?
19. Found out who your true friends were: ...can don't answer?
20. Found out someone was talking about you: ya...
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: like no._.duh
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most:D
23. How many kids do you want to have: none.
24. Do you have any pets: no:P
25. Do you want to change your name: hell ya!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: hmm...celebrate!!:D
27. What time did you wake up today: 9.16 0.o
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: trying to sleep-.-
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: ummm...miracles:D
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: a lot of things
32. What are u listening to now: just a dream(nelly)
33. Have u ever met a person named Tom: no...
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing n everything
35. Most visited website: facebook,youtube,blogger
36. Whats your real name: tammy
37. Nicknames: hammy,hei mee._.
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac : ox
40. Male or Female?: female:D
41. Elemanatery: CHIJ OLGC
42. Middle School?: CHIJ SJC
43. High school/college?: not yet
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: short
46. Height: 157?
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: no
48: What do you like about yourself?: eyes?
49. Piercings: ya...closed:(
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: righty
.FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: nvr had
53. First piercing: quite long ago:P
54. First best friend: ...dunno
55. First sport you joined: wushu?
56. First vacation: Thailand
58. First pair of trainers: dunno...can't rmb.
(:RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: nothing
61. Going to: listen to more songs!:D
62. Listening to: homecoming(hey monday)
63. Waiting on: ?
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: no
65. Get Married: dunno...
66. Career?: of course.
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger n older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms
73. Sensitive or loud: sensetive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationships
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble makers:D
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: no
77. Drank hard liquor: a bit:P
78. Lost glasses/contacts: ya...
79. Sex on first date: no.
80. Broken someone's heart: no.
82. Been arrested: in my dreams
83. Turned someone down: no
84. Cried when someone died: ...
85. Fallen for a friend?: duh...no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: ya
87. Miracles: yes!
88. Love at first sight: no.
89. Heaven: maybe...
90. Santa Claus: once._.
91. Kiss on the first date: ...no
92. Angels: yes:D
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no.
95. Did you sing today?: ya
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : pre school,no worries:D
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: graduation night
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes...
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: :D
what we could have been, 11:08 AM.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:D
saturday was fun~
was the concert:)
reached CJC super early
tot it was the wrong place manx:P
haha:D
then went to pratice from 1+-3.30...
then from there went to the holding rm tat was actually a toilet0.o
rest there n ate there too:P
then pratice again then the concert started liao...
saw sab soh:D
she wants her non-existance macdonald meal-.-
like i said NON-EXISTANCE:d
then after tat went home~
to lazy to blog now
so bye~
saturday was fun~
was the concert:)
reached CJC super early
tot it was the wrong place manx:P
haha:D
then went to pratice from 1+-3.30...
then from there went to the holding rm tat was actually a toilet0.o
rest there n ate there too:P
then pratice again then the concert started liao...
saw sab soh:D
she wants her non-existance macdonald meal-.-
like i said NON-EXISTANCE:d
then after tat went home~
to lazy to blog now
so bye~
what we could have been, 9:49 AM.
Monday, November 15, 2010
ROTTING.
AT.
HOME.
BORED.
TO.
THE.
MAX.
gah...
so much things to do
n yet so little-.-
okay this is nonsensical:/
BLOP.
CLOP.
GLOP.
SLOP.
random._.
weird...
one month pass liao...
n all i did at home was
ESSN 0.o
Eat.Sleep.Shit.Nua.
WTF.
so entertaining-.-
AT.
HOME.
BORED.
TO.
THE.
MAX.
gah...
so much things to do
n yet so little-.-
okay this is nonsensical:/
BLOP.
CLOP.
GLOP.
SLOP.
random._.
weird...
one month pass liao...
n all i did at home was
ESSN 0.o
Eat.Sleep.Shit.Nua.
WTF.
so entertaining-.-
what we could have been, 12:49 PM.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
n after all the trouble,
i'm back to my old skin-.-
gah._.
i'm back to my old skin-.-
gah._.
what we could have been, 2:14 PM.
yay!!!:DD
found TWO blogskins tat r actually nice:DD
but i dunno which one to chose._.
bleh.
i aso too lazy to go change the watsoeva rubbish after changing blogskin:P
damn:(
haha:D
i noe someone is jealous tat i found TWO ok blogskin while she found none!!:D
haha~
found TWO blogskins tat r actually nice:DD
but i dunno which one to chose._.
bleh.
i aso too lazy to go change the watsoeva rubbish after changing blogskin:P
damn:(
haha:D
i noe someone is jealous tat i found TWO ok blogskin while she found none!!:D
haha~
what we could have been, 1:23 PM.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
yoyoyo!!!
Yee Ling if ur reading this,
i seriously need smth from u!!
can lend ur bk list?:P
pls?
haha:D
u must b thinking y i nvr msg u instead rite?:P
cox i'm bored n this seem more fun:DD
but first...
i need to find mine list first-.-
but if i can't find it
can lend it to me on fri when got cca?
pls?
thks:D
Yee Ling if ur reading this,
i seriously need smth from u!!
can lend ur bk list?:P
pls?
haha:D
u must b thinking y i nvr msg u instead rite?:P
cox i'm bored n this seem more fun:DD
but first...
i need to find mine list first-.-
but if i can't find it
can lend it to me on fri when got cca?
pls?
thks:D
what we could have been, 12:20 PM.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
stupid fever:(
on,off,on,off:(
the medcine is suckish D:
go away lar u sickening fever D:
damn u! u stupid fever:(
haisssss...
i think the fever has gone to my brain:((
stupid~
stupid fever:(
on,off,on,off:(
the medcine is suckish D:
go away lar u sickening fever D:
damn u! u stupid fever:(
haisssss...
i think the fever has gone to my brain:((
stupid~
what we could have been, 10:32 AM.
Monday, November 8, 2010
urgh.
the previous post makes me think bout it
n just makes me more pissed.
so let's distracted myself-.-
drip drop:D
*sign* bored much:(
have a fever:(
but it doesn't feel like fever0.o
but i feel cold...
but the fan is on-.-
so duh.
my vioce is like shit now.
so technically n indirectly,
i'm dead.
shit 12 more days~
better recover fast.
cox i have to...
*sign*
i feel pathetic:(
pissed too.
bored:(
hehe:D
just bought a bk:P
but i finished it:(
in a day-.-
tat's shitty.
sian much:(
bleh.
blah.
bloh.
argh.
damn.
i'm pissed again.
the previous post makes me think bout it
n just makes me more pissed.
so let's distracted myself-.-
drip drop:D
*sign* bored much:(
have a fever:(
but it doesn't feel like fever0.o
but i feel cold...
but the fan is on-.-
so duh.
my vioce is like shit now.
so technically n indirectly,
i'm dead.
shit 12 more days~
better recover fast.
cox i have to...
*sign*
i feel pathetic:(
pissed too.
bored:(
hehe:D
just bought a bk:P
but i finished it:(
in a day-.-
tat's shitty.
sian much:(
bleh.
blah.
bloh.
argh.
damn.
i'm pissed again.
what we could have been, 3:39 PM.
It's confusing.
sometimes u r this n sometimes u r that.
somehow i suddenly feel like i dun noe u at all.
like a stranger.
'i dunno u. neither do u noe me'
it's irritating.
drifting apart is way faster than befriending.
i learn something thks to u.
something tat i didn't want to noe.
it's hard
trying to do ur best but yet
it does nt work.
u act,i act.
n it gets us nowhere.
wonderful. how nice.
u put on a fake smile
yet u clearly show tat u really dun even want to do tat.
so wat's the point?
i really dun get it.
wonderful.
how shit can this even get,i wonder.
wat the fuck r u thinking?!
i really wanna yet i dun.
it's confusing n contridicting.
wat the hell.
i really dun understand all this rubbish.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT.
ISN'T THIS JUST WONDERFUL?!
WE'RE FAKING EVERYTHING!
JUST PERFET! WONDERFUL!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
shit.
damn.
u.
u're.
a.
bloody.
fucking.
complete.
idiotic.
moronic.
stupid.
asshole.
thks a lot for all this bloody shit.
i REALLY appreciate it A LOT.
thks so much.
dun fuck with me.
i'm pissed enough.
sometimes u r this n sometimes u r that.
somehow i suddenly feel like i dun noe u at all.
like a stranger.
'i dunno u. neither do u noe me'
it's irritating.
drifting apart is way faster than befriending.
i learn something thks to u.
something tat i didn't want to noe.
it's hard
trying to do ur best but yet
it does nt work.
u act,i act.
n it gets us nowhere.
wonderful. how nice.
u put on a fake smile
yet u clearly show tat u really dun even want to do tat.
so wat's the point?
i really dun get it.
wonderful.
how shit can this even get,i wonder.
wat the fuck r u thinking?!
i really wanna yet i dun.
it's confusing n contridicting.
wat the hell.
i really dun understand all this rubbish.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT.
ISN'T THIS JUST WONDERFUL?!
WE'RE FAKING EVERYTHING!
JUST PERFET! WONDERFUL!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
shit.
damn.
u.
u're.
a.
bloody.
fucking.
complete.
idiotic.
moronic.
stupid.
asshole.
thks a lot for all this bloody shit.
i REALLY appreciate it A LOT.
thks so much.
dun fuck with me.
i'm pissed enough.
what we could have been, 3:10 PM.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
yesterday was fun:D
when to sab tan's hse:P
but went to nicole.T hse first:D
haha.
debbie kanna 'bullied' by nicole n sab.T on the way
nicole hse got so many chairs 0.o
nicole got threaten by sab tan0.o tsk tsk
then from there go back to sch
sab got damn pissed on the way...
chill~
ok fastttttttttt ffforwardddddddddddddddd
becca,sab,nicole n azrina went swimming
haha:D
poor sab soh
kanna splash by becca n sab tan:DD
fasttttttttttttttttt ffffffffforwarddddddddddd somemore...
i reached home:P
when to sab tan's hse:P
but went to nicole.T hse first:D
haha.
debbie kanna 'bullied' by nicole n sab.T on the way
nicole hse got so many chairs 0.o
nicole got threaten by sab tan0.o tsk tsk
then from there go back to sch
sab got damn pissed on the way...
chill~
ok fastttttttttt ffforwardddddddddddddddd
becca,sab,nicole n azrina went swimming
haha:D
poor sab soh
kanna splash by becca n sab tan:DD
fasttttttttttttttttt ffffffffforwarddddddddddd somemore...
i reached home:P
what we could have been, 10:44 AM.
