Friday, June 1, 2012
Nothing seems to be getting better.
Just worse.
Yeah. Pretty much sounding like a pessimist huh?
Not like I want to.
But I really can't see the good in pretty much everything now.
The more I try, the worse it gets.
Is it me or it's just everyone else around me?
I'm scared.
I really am.
Yet I do not know what I am scared for or of.
But yet, I do know.
Am I going crazy?
Probably.
Losing my mind?
Oh wait.
Already have.
I'm scared
Yet glad
Yet sad
Yet mad
What's happening?
I really hate this.
Why must it be me?
Why can't it be someone else
Who has the screwed up family?
Why can't it be someone else
Who has to put on a different mask for different people?
Why can't I be someone else?
Why can't I be happy?
I don't even know who I really am anymore.
Right now, I'm just a shell.
Smiling.
It's fake.
Laughing.
It's fake.
Me.
I'm fake.
So what is real?
I can't find anything that is really real.
So my life is technically fake huh?
So happiness is just suppose to be some fairy tale bullshit.
I don't want to do this anymore.
But I don't know how to stop it.
I don't even know who I am anymore.
So what's the point?
Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being someone big
We're so young then
We were too crazy in love
When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream
We'll Be A Dream
By We The Kings ft. Demi Lovato
what we could have been, 9:58 PM.
